We have known for months now that Caleb was miraculously healed. One moment you could feel the tumor in his leg and a few minutes later – after receiving prayer and the laying on of hands – the tumor was gone. There was no doubt what God had done! But now we have the official, medical diagnosis that his scans all came back clear – WE ARE OFFICIALLY CANCER FREE!!
Our oncologist called us late yesterday evening to give us the news. I was at a meeting with some friends and local businessmen that want to start a non-profit to help kids in similar situations to what we have dealt with the last year – please be praying for their effort. She left a message that everything was all clear! I was so excited, as you could imagine. I talked to her this morning and she was excited, as well.
We did find out yesterday that the protocol for the clinical trial we participated in calls for a final PET scan at the end of the chemo. We go in for that next week. Following that visit, we don’t go back for a whole month! How will that feel?!
The visits now will come once a month until the port is surgically removed. That usually happens six months after chemo ends. After that, the visits fall back to once every three months for a couple of years for xrays. Caleb is also officially released from his restrictive diet. He can have lettuce, strawberries, apples, runny eggs, and can go to a buffet again (not that we need that!). He is also cleared for all activities including beach trips.
Caleb was able to go to Alpha (the youth group at our church) last night for the first time in a very long time. He was so happy about it and talked all the way back home about the service and seeing his friends. I was so excited for him. What an amazing kid he is. I am so proud of who he is and who he is becoming. His strength and patience during this time has inspired and taught me a lot. Now we are ready to see that beautiful full head of hair back like it is supposed to be. Caleb has remained self-conscious of the fact that he has no hair. So many kids stare and some even snicker. I have my opinions on that, but I’ll keep them to myself. It should start coming back soon!
The spiritual battle continued to rage against us yesterday. Something very interesting happened that showed that the spiritual attack of the enemy is real. We were in the room awaiting xrays – our first look inside the leg since right before the surgery. The room was dark, and not just the lighting. I felt a sense of fear that was very real. I started having doubtful thoughts like – what if there is something on the xray? What if the cancer came back? Many kids that go through and beat cancer have it come back on them after they have beat it, you know?
Well, there was no doubt where that was coming from! I started quietly praying and coming against that while Caleb lay on the table waiting to get started, staring at the ceiling. I very quietly said, “You are a liar, devil! By Jesus’ stripes, Caleb is healed. God began the good work and He will carry it to completion. No weapon formed against us shall prosper, and nothing shall by any means harm him! God has done the work, it is finished, and we have victory through the blood of Jesus and the word of our testimony!”
I don’t know every reference for all of those scriptures, but they are all scriptures that we have quoted and stood on. And notice that although I was quiet about it, I spoke those words out loud. The enemy must respond to the Word of God, but he cannot respond to your thoughts because he cannot read your mind. When you are fighting a spiritual battle, your words have to be spoken out loud. Also, God’s word will not return to Him without accomplishing what He sends it for (Isaiah 55:11) and the only way we can “return” His word to Him is by speaking it.
Caleb turned to me and said, “Sir?” I told him I was not talking to him but was speaking against the enemy’s attack of fear and doubt in the room. He said, “How did you know I was fighting that?” I told him it was because I was fighting it, too, and we both had picked up on the attack of the enemy in that room against our thoughts. If he can get control of your thoughts, he has control of you. By the Word of God that was spoken, the fear and doubt was gone, the xrays were taken, and we saw immediately that they were clear.
We can have victory in every area of our lives by speaking what God says in His word about our situation out loud; by returning His word to Him. I still have to remember to apply that to other areas of my life daily. Whether we like it or not, we are in a spiritual battle every day – it is why Jesus told us to take up our cross DAILY. And we are in battle whether we like it or not. There is no demilitarized zone. We are either on the Lord’s side or the devil’s side.
I know I say it almost every post, but I would rather overstate it than understate it – we are so thankful for all of you that have endured this journey with us. We are still going to be a one-income family for the next little while, so we appreciate your prayers for us in that regard. God has been so faithful!
There are some opportunities that we are praying about and doors that may be cracking open, so we covet your prayers for direction and provision; that the Lord’s will will be made plain to us. I would go back to work tomorrow if I could, but I feel there has been a shift and God has used this attack of the enemy for good. It is time that I pursue something I am passionate about and the opportunity for a refocus has never been better. We are praying about the possibilities ahead and I will be making a big announcement as part of that plan next week. It is something very big for us and something I have wanted to do for over 20 years now. We feel we have the direction and the timing is right. Be on the lookout for more information on that in the next week or so! And PRAY! Love you all!
“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord.
“For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways,
And My thoughts than your thoughts.
“For as the rain comes down, and the snow from heaven,
And do not return there,
But water the earth,
And make it bring forth and bud,
That it may give seed to the sower
And bread to the eater,
So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth;
It shall not return to Me void,
But it shall accomplish what I please,
And it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it
“For you shall go out with joy,
And be led out with peace;
The mountains and the hills
Shall break forth into singing before you,
And all the trees of the field shall clap their hands.