As a good friend put it on Facebook today – we are in the home stretch! This is next to the last hospital stay we have scheduled as part of the chemo treatment schedule. Things will start to wind down as we get close to the end. Caleb’s last scheduled chemo treatment is the week of September 10-14. There will be some celebrating going on when that week is done!
I have said from the beginning that this blog was a therapeutic outlet for me. I love to write. And I love speaking what’s on my heart – sometimes to a fault. I have shared over the last few months some of the frustrations I have encountered with having to stay at home and provide the care for Caleb while my wife goes to work every day. It is really hard to deal with at times and I have struggled with it. But one thing you have seen through this blog that I have shared has been how God has provided for us by supernaturally healing Caleb (even the doctors attest to this) and through the support – financially and emotionally – of our many friends.
It has been a real test for us as we have tread through some dark places – times when I wondered how we would put food on the table the next day. God has provided every step of the way and we never missed a meal. But He also gave me some direction a couple of weeks ago that has been a tremendous boost to my self-esteem and helped financially.
We are still facing a mountain of medical bills, but according to Mark 11: 23-24, we can speak to that mountain and tell it to move in Jesus name. We have done that and just this week through another large, anonymous gift from someone we were able to take another chunk out of it. And that happened right as I was looking at my situation and circumstances and had taken my eyes off of Jehovah-Jireh – my Provider – for a moment. It was sort of like Peter, who walked on water at the beckoning of Jesus, but began sinking when he looked around at what was happening instead of remaining fixated on Jesus and His command to come to Him. There’s some preaching that could happen right there.
We remain encouraged and know that no matter where we find ourselves, God is with us. He cares for us. He makes a way when there seems to be no way. No matter what desert you feel you are standing in today, God can make a river in the desert today. If we would just take our eyes off of our situations and circumstances (preaching to myself here), and instead stay focused on the Author and Finisher of our faith, we can overcome any obstacle the enemy tries to set in our path.
We will be here at the hospital through at least Saturday night and possibly until Sunday afternoon. Holly is coming up Friday after school to take over for the weekend. I have been here one night and I’m already exhausted from very little sleep on this wonderful little couch. Thanks for sticking in there with us and holding us up in prayer. We are almost done with the hard part. Our God is greater…
“When the poor and needy search for water and there is none,
and their tongues are parched from thirst,
then I, the Lord, will answer them.
I, the God of Israel, will never abandon them.
I will open up rivers for them on the high plateaus.
I will give them fountains of water in the valleys.
I will fill the desert with pools of water.
Rivers fed by springs will flow across the parched ground.
-Isaiah 41:17-18 (NLT)